you oughta know - alanis morissette

I want you to know, that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both...

an older version of me, is she perverted like me?
would she go down on you in a theater?
does she speaks enloquently?
and, would she have your baby?
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother...

'cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
to make it enough for you to be open wide...
and every time you speak her name,
does she know how you told me you'd hold me until you die?
...until you die, but you're still alive...

and I'm here to remind you, of the mess you left when you went away
it's not fair, to deny me,
of the cross I bear that you gave to me,
you oughta know...

you seem very well, things look peaceful, I'm not quite as well
I thought you should know...
did you forget about me, Mr. Duplicity?
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner,
it was a slap in the face, how quickly I was replaced
and, are you thinking on me when you fuck her?

'cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
to make it enough for you to be open wide...
and every time you speak her name,
does she know how you told me you'd hold me until you die?
...until you die, but you're still alive...

and I'm here to remind you, of the mess you left when you went away
it's not fair, to deny me,
of the cross I bear that you gave to me,
you oughta know...


'cause the joke that you laid in the bed, that was me
and I'm not gonna fade as soon as you close your eyes,
and you know it,
and every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back I hope you feel it,
well can you feel it?

...'ever got the feeling you've been cheated?, good night'

...los sex pistols, o mas bien rotten dijo una frase, ke hasta ahora comprendo lo importante ke es...
nunka habia tenido esa sensacion, y ahora ke esta aki, ya no hay mas ke hacer, solo tratar de pensar en otras cosas, pero eso no es posible, si cada pekeño detalle ke ves a tu alrededor te lo rekuerda, no piensas en eso todo el tiempo, pero aveces los lugares, las personas y/o las situaciones, hacen ke regrese, y arruine el momento, el dia o incluso toda la vida como me pasa a mi,
ya nunka podre dejarlo ir, estara conmigo siempre, cada momento ke sea similar a aquella vez me arruinara mis momentos,
aun puedo sentir la tristeza,las ganas de salir huyendo de ahi, pero el mismo tiempo deseos de quedarme, de ke me consolaran,
no podia dejar de llorar, por mas ke lo intentara, y en ese momento de tristeza cai en el errror que tanto critiko,
sentia ke yo tenia la culpa, ke no era suficientemente buena, o ke no valia la pena respetarme porke a fin de cuentas yo no era nada, no valia nada en ese momento,
nisikiera mi po valio nada, no importamos, desaparecimos,
ahora que lo veo desde otro punto, veo ke si, tal ves en ese momento no significamos nada,
pero no es nuestra culpa, nosotros somos demasiado, y si aveces sentimos ke no merece nuestro respeto,
asi komo nosotros no merecimos el suyo,,,
pero extrañamente aun tenemos sentimientos buenos...
no kiero hacer daño,
no kiero rebajarme al nivel de tener ke andar mendigando una noche sin valor y sin nada
eso no es lo ke nosotras merecemos,
somos demasiado buenas para....
pero eso me hace feliz, porke asi el sentimiento de culpabilidad estara siempre presente,,,
y lo mejor, eske nosotras estaremos trankilas porke sabemos ke no hemos hecho nada malo,....

I wanna do wrong, I want you gone
my eyes are burning red from all the tears that I've cried
now I'm watching you with her, and hatred does occur
mean, mean man, selfish son of a bitch
I hope I don't miss
I'm watching you with her
and I'm watching you burned

eye for an eye
you sealed my heart with a kiss
now I'm taking what it needs
lie upon lie
nothing left but your cries
I'm taking back what is mine

smiles across my face
I'm standing over you and I laugh straight in your face
I'm taking you home the gir has found her stone

cold, cold man
selfish son of a bitch
im glad I didn't miss
im taking you home
now we are all alone

eye for an eye
you sealed my heart with a kiss
now I'm taking what it needs
lie upon lie
nothing left but your cries
I'm taking back what is mine

you came to my home with so many needs
you craved all I had and I gave into your every little desire
you slept in my arms
and you sucked from my lips
and when everything was taken...


I never cared for guns
but that night I opened the bar keeper's box
and I shot you both down
a bloody mess of fire was all my heart desired


eye for an eye
you sucked my heart dry
now I'm taking what is mine
lie upon lie
no more hurting crimes
what's left is for you to cry
oh cry
you sealed my heart with a kiss
now I'm taking what it needs

eye for an eye
no longer will I cry
I'm taking back what is mine...

A Little Pain *Olivia Lufkin*

Travel to the moon
kimi wa nemuri yume wo toku
dare mo inai hoshi no hikari ayatsurinagara

tsuyoku naru tame wasureta egao
kitto futari nara torimodosu

* kidzuite
I'm here waiting for you
ima to wa chigau mirai ga attemo
I'm here waiting for you
sakebitsudzukete
kitto kokoro wa tsunagu ito wo tagutteru
ano koro no watashi me wo samasu you ni
no need to cry

Travel in silence
te wo nobaseba fureru noni
kimi wa tooi
sore wa omoide no naka no koto

koe ga kikoeru me wo tojireba
chiisana itami sae itoshikute

mitsumete
I'm here waiting for you
kaze ni fukare hitori mayottemo
I'm here waiting for you
sora wo miagete
zutto kokoro wa te wo hirogete mamotteru
ano koro no kimi ga furikaeru made
no need to cry

(Feel something, Feel nothing
Listen closely, Listen closely)
Wide open ears
Disarm the dream tickler
In the constant moment
(You will find me, Where it's quiet
Listen closely, Listen closely)
Let the blood flow
Through all the spaces
Of the universe





-*-SPANISH VERSION-*-
Paseando en la luna,
desatas mi despertar y mid dueños.
No hay nadie alrededor,mientras
tu tiras de las cuerdas de las estrellas,
por que me estaria volviendo mas fuerte.
Si estuvieramos juntos, podria recuperar mi sonrisa olvidada,
observame.
Aqui estoy esperandote
incluso si el futuro es diferente de ahora en adelante.
Aqui estoy esperandote
sin parar de gritar
se que mi corazon esta tirando del hielo que nos conecta
paraa que despierteen mi, el de aquellos tiempos
no nesecitas llorar.
Paseando en silencio.
incluso cuando quiere tocarte, al estirar mis manos,
sigues estando lejos
esto solo era algo fuera de mis recuerdos.
Puedo escuchar tu voz
cuando cierro mis ojos
incluso un poco de dolor es agradable para mi.
Mirame
aqui estoy esperandote
aunque me lleve el viento, sola y perdida
aqui estoy esperandote
mira el cielo
mi corazon se ha separado eternamente de estas manos protectoras
hasta que vuelvas a mirarme otra vez
no nedecitas llorar
abre los oidos (sentir algo,no sentir nada)
(escucha atentamente,escucha atentamente)
y desarma este sueño a cosquillas
y en el momento justo
(si me hubieras encontrado donde estaba callada)
(escucha atentamente,escucha atentamente)
deja que mi sangre fluya
atravez de todo el espacio
del universo
observame
aqui estoy esperandote
incluso si el futuro es diferente de ahora en adelante
aqui estoy esperandote
sin parar se gritar,
se que mi corazon esta tirando del hilo que nos conecta
para que despierte en mi, el de aquellos tiempos
no nesecitas llorar
(escucha atentamente, escucha atentamente).

i find out something shitty,, me hace querer llorar o nose...
i just wanna know,, porke eskonderlo??,, porke no simplemente me dicen la verdad
y yaa.. why did i have to find out this way
i hate ....
fuck .....
i just wanna be alone, all alone,,
anybody but us,
i dont need fucking liars,,,
i fucking tired of lies,,,
they fucking think im stupid, but im not
fuckk...!!!!
y estoi segura that ..... is not going to tell me anything,,
..... is gonna keep ... lie,
till the day came, and im just gonna stay here, like a fucking idiot,
waiting, suffering, and ...... is going to be soooo happy, so motherfucking
careless,,, with that fucking bitches,,,
goshh i just hate this,, i know ..... dont fucking care about us,,,
i guess my bf was right,, but i cant understand why u.u
why did everyone of them makes me cry always,,
siempre prometen que me haran feliz, pero nunca es asi,
they say that they dont wanna be apart from me,
but i know they lie,,
that's not the problem,, el problema es porke no simplemente lo
dicen,
fuck ......
maybe .... is not the one for me,,
no one is,,,
damn im depressed..

tendre un hijo,
es geniaal, soi feliz, nose me siento bien
pero tengo un mal presentimiento, porque no puedo
imaginarme con el, nose, es mui extraño
porque simplemente aun no puedo creerlo
y se que cuando siento eso es algo malo
:(
quiero hacer lo posible por estar equivocada,
se que esta adentro de mi, lo siento, pero no puedo
verlo en el futuro, no puedo
tengo miedooo,,, tal ves algo muy malo va a pasar,
y no se muy bien que sea...
yo no quiero que pase nada... solo quiero que
todo salga bien
como lo he pensado ultimamente
quiero dejar de asustarme, quiero sentir la felicidad
todo el tiempo, no solo un pequeño rato,
y lo mas triste es que no hay casi nadie con quien hablarlo,
no se a quien confesarle esto,
se que todos me mandaran a la mierda
con sus tipicas fracesitas pendejas de ''estas loca, todo
va a estar bien''
eso no lo soluciona, necesito a alguien que me diga que me entiende
y que me diga que hacer, como quitar este maldito presentimiento
de mi cabeza,,,

i hate this side of me.. this piece that make me insecure, make a little freakin cat..untrusting everyone.. but i know.. i've got my reasons, but its hard to make 'em understand... cause i may sound a little .. obsesive... or something like that...
but i know im not,, i just wanna make sure that the sad story its not gonna be told again

i've been the main character so many times .. and i dont like that feeling.. i dont like to be her... id rather just be alone.. but to suffer,, being with someone, and being hurt.. like always..
i just want to know what it feels like, te be happy, without having to worry, just laying there, thinkin of nothing, of no one, just me and myself... its what maybe i was always looking for, but im not sure anymore... im not sure of being around this world.. about sharing my little world,, i dont wanna be understood.. i just wanna be left alone,,

but then i take a step back.. why am I saying that??... didn't i see him?.. and most important... didnt i feel him??...

im just trapped between 2 worlds, being alone, to think, to love myself.. to be selfish... or being with him..
i really like the second option, but, im not good at sharing.. anything.. im not good at taking care of someone, im not good about relationships...

i may not be the one to be with him.. he's just waaaay to much awesome, perfect.. and maybe im just... nothing... im not worth anything.. he deserves something better,,, someone that fills him inside,, i cant do that.. im just too.. selfish..


i cant give him back what he gave me... i know he's happy this way...
but in the future... he's gonna get tired... And there itis when the sad history was beginning...